Sweetheart: "Happy Birthday !!!" This is a really hard day for me because I want you here with me celebrating your Birthday. I sat and thought about a lot of the things we had done & places we visited over the years. Sled dog races in Alleghany, NY & Warren, PA, Finger Lakes & Canadian wineries, Jamestown in August & February for the Skating Competitions & Winterfest, Chautauqua, Findley Lake, Bemus Point, Wolf's Maple Lodge, Henry's Farm Market, Lewiston, East Aurora, Holley NY at Hurd's Orchards for the Thanksgiving Tastings, Canandaigua, Seneca Park Zoo, Niagara-on-the-Lake, St. Catherine's, Stratford, Kitchener, Port Colborne, Port Dalhousie, Niagara Falls, Fort Niagara, Fort Erie, Burlington, Hamilton, Long Rides, Pogo, remembering you were always a "Master" with directions whenever we traveled. The Olean Squirrels, The Titanic & Tesla Exhibits, Bookstores & Coffee, Garage & Library Sales, Coffee Shops & Jazz, Kink Stores & Tack Shops, The "Infractions Board" that you would leave me messages on, Gifts from The Twisted Screw , The Romantic Rose & The Golden Bear. Sterling & Fulton. The Seneca Lodge, Niagara Falls Dances, Ravenwood Castle in the Hocking Hills Forest, seeing as many productions of Evita & Romeo & Juliet as we could, Aurora, Skaneateles, Saratoga, The Herkimer Diamond Mines, Cooperstown, Ithaca, The Transit Drive-In, Scrabble games with drinks & treats, ALWAYS being exceedingly protective of me, always facing doors & exits when we went anywhere in case there was ever a problem, ordering for me in restaurants, Sessions, Our Playroom, Packing to go away--the "first" bag packed was always the best. You always said we were the only ones who did that. Holding Hands when we were out, Lots of Lunches out, your favorite things to make: Weiner Stew, Crepes, Spaetzle, Short Rib Dinner, Hungarian Sausage. Going to Sanctuary, Blowing out the Streetlights whenever you walked, drove or parked the car & got out. Always really enjoying the trips my brother gave us for Christmas Gifts. I'm "So Sorry" we never got to use the last one. It would have been as great as all the others & we were really looking forward to it. You always had the warmest, softest hands & kick ass legs. Your Leather Making ability was Stellar. Going to Canada to get our hair cut, all the great places we went to eat--too many to even start naming but a few big favorites were: Smugglers Wharf in Erie, PA & The Budapest in London, ON, Suisse Chalet in Niagara Falls, ON, Copacabana in Niagara Falls, ON, The Seneca Café in the Seneca Alleghany Casino & Resort. Seeing Meatloaf in Concert. Watching the First Snowfall of the season, Watching the Thunderstorms & Lightening, Always taking vacation the week of our Anniversary, Sitting out & feeding the Squirrels, All of The Adoptees, Bringing you coffee & snacks in the Study at night when you were on the computer. Waiting four years for the Winter Olympics & watching them together. I was holding it together until just now--be back in a minute- I need a break. I'm back Sweetie. The Olympics will be really hard for me to watch in February. Gargoyles, Angels, Polar Bears & Siberian Huskies. Putting up the Christmas Tree decorated with 1,100 little white lights, angels, gold hearts, turtle doves & Arctic Animals. You always said they could land the planes from the light coming from our window when it was lit. Christmas Eve, our favorite day & night of the year. I look into the study from our Living Room now & it's dark. I'm used to seeing the desk lamp on & you at our desk on the computer. I tried turning the desk lamp on but it doesn't help because I can't see you at the desk. I'm really missing you on your Birthday. I would give anything in the world to hold you again, talk to you and get one of your Great Kisses and Hugs. "I Love You So Much Sweetheart" and "I Miss You Something Fierce." Words can never be enough to tell you how much you mean to me. I'll be back again to write more. "Happy Birthday, My Love." Love, Hugs & Kisses, Me. XOXOXOX. aka: as inscribed on the inside of your Black Ring: "Love Forever, Gabrielle." Don't worry Sweetheart, I'm not going to say what you had inscribed on the inside of mine. That will be our little secret.
Sweetheart: I had to get you both candles. I know how much we loved them. Our time was way too short. We still had things we wanted and needed to do. Looking at photos, memories, thinking of all we did over the years really hurts because you're not here to share them with me. The crying is getting no better. I want you here on Sunday mornings for breakfast, reading with me, playing Scrabble, waking up with you, going on our trips, packing the first travel bag, just being here to talk to & share our days together & then our nights. " I Love You So Much " & "Miss You So Much." I don't understand how people deal with this and get better. I don't see that in my future without you here to help me. "I Love You, Angel Baby & I Miss You " more than words can ever say. Love, Hugs & Kisses. Me. XOXOXOX.
Honey: You were truly the "Light of my Life". I'll never forget the day we were driving back from Sterling on a country road in Fulton when I started crying in the car. You pulled off to the side of the road & asked me what was wrong. I told you that was the best weekend of my life & now it was over. You looked at me & said you were going to wait to do this, but decided to do it now. I started crying harder. I thought you were breaking up with me. You held my hand, caressed my cheek, wiped my tears & said " It doesn't have to be over if you say you'll marry me." I will never forget that day. We had only been going out for @ 6 weeks. You said you decided that a few weeks ago when we were in Niagara Falls for a dance & were walking down by the Falls. You turned me and kissed me & all the fireworks went off behind us. You said you knew that was a sign. You have rocked my world ever since that day. " I Love You So Much" and "Miss You So Much." I would do ANYTHING in the world to have you back. You were the" Best Husband in the World." You are truly a "Priceless Treasure " to me. Love, Hugs & Kisses. Me. XOXOXOX. bzzbzz